Good feedback. I edited in a way that I hope reflects more of what you are saying. I definitely didn’t mean that we don’t need God at other times! There are truly no words to express how much I know I need God “every hour.”

That said, when I was starting my family, I didn’t understand how much I could rely on Him, nor did I understand that the difficulties I was experiencing were part of what it means to be mortal. Pain felt more like punishment, and the overwhelm of motherhood felt like I was a failure. I wasn’t a natural nurturer. I struggled with my temper. I tried harder and harder to fix myself instead of understanding that weakness is part of the plan, a gift that can help us turn to God more readily in our lives.

For me, coming face to face with impossible weakness and situations has been what has helped me awaken to God’s love and my utter reliance on Him. So my original language was trying to capture more than that, because “in reality” I didn’t see things as they really were until I had repeatedly come up against my weakness and inability to fix myself. Don’t know if that makes sense….